11 Stages

A Poem by chandlerl

emo

First there's disbelief
because you said you loved me.
Then there's anger
a dark red fire
that fuels the hate inside
because of the lies you fed me.

Hysteria invades my mind
a liquid burning poison
insane laughter and madness
causes the split of skin
the blood runs cold and from scared hands,
that once had held you close.

Hollow sadness
buried in my stomach
and reaching into the marrow of my bones
that no food can fill
all that remains is bitterness.

The

depression you brought
still rings in my ears
tears only run at night
when I'm alone in my bed
when I'm the only one who has to suffer the pain.

Deep lines that run down,
and tears of red
drip down from my veins.

There is no acceptance.
No hope for friendship.
Not when tears still run red
not when this fire can still be fueled
every time I think of you

11 months I spent with you
11 months I believed
before I was thrown away
Now shattered there's no hope
to ever be put back together.

You'll always be the only one
who was able to hold my heart
You whispered secrets into my ear
they made my fears disappear.
Until you crushed it all.

10 feelings,
here's the eleventh
one for every month you stayed

The eleventh is pity
for myself
because now every time I glance into the mirror
I'm haunted by a void of life
in my eyes- in my heart
there are only unshed tears.