Pain

Thought I was doing better 
thought I would be ok
then it all snapped
all I want to do is slice my wrist open
watch it fall to the ground
tie a noose 
put around my neck 
jump off a bridge
do anything everything to end this all
every heart beat is destroying me
I know you don't want to hear this 
but its the truth
I put on a smile and laugh off the pain 
but I can't do that anymore
I can't 
I'm not doing this for atteition
I'm doing so that maybe someone will notice 
just how much I'm hurting and 
help me 
that's all I want is help cant you see that please
someone tell you can see that 
please 
help me 
before its too late

Reviews

[Chris]

Hi... Ya know - it IS allowed for it to be HARD to be us. Growing into the people we become takes a LOT of deep and held breaths, tears, even sometimes being able to laugh at our own frailties when the whole freakin world seems to be comin' down. It is NOT wrong to want attention, friends, acceptance, to feel bad because you ARE alone (even if it were truly just behind your eyes - cause afterall THAT is where we really live isn't it?), to feel lost, afraid, unwanted ...that is kinda real isn't it?

Catch a breath and wander through this place... the peeps are pretty cool and meanness for the sake of meanness is more rare than most sites for poets and writers - at least that I visited. You'll find you aren't as alone anymore and talking is what we do.

so again - Hi, I'm Chris

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

Thanks and Hey...I'm Shae-Leigh

[Chris]

Welcome to Writer's Cafe Miss Shae-Leigh. I think you'll like it here...

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

Thank you Mr.Chris

[Chris]

chuckling here - anytime... anytime at all

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

would it be ok if I messaged you?

[Chris]

of course...

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Its okay to feel these things at one time in life. Main thing is to be strong and find solace in the things we have and know that what's stored for our destiny is the right thing for us.
Excellent show of emotions!

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

thank you so much

[Dr. YumnaKay]

You are welcome ☺

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

[Pete]

You will be just fine. The fact that you can even write this and are able to express your feelings this way already puts you ahead of most people. Stay strong. You have a wonderful full life awaiting you.

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

thank you so much

[Tessa]

these are some deep thought and feelings you've shared, i like writing like this because it's so raw and personal. good job :). you spelled attention wrong btw.

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

thank you and sorry about the typo

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Well I have one beautiful poem proverb to share with you "even this will pass away" Don't decide the life in moments live life with achievements :)

You can achieve whatever you decide my friend...

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

Thank you

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Welcome always :)

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

message me if you want to :)