Help

I'm faling fast and far. 

I did well for so long. 

Now it's failing. 

Painting? 

I'm terrible at it anyway. 

And have no ideas. 

I just want to be gone. 
So my mind will stop with it's bullshit. 

I can't stay in one place. 

But I don't want to become him. 

I'm sorry. 

But I'm starting to see it as my best option again. 

I can't help who I am. 

And I'm sorry if things end in a bad way. 

I just. 

I have no idea who I am anymore. 

Or where I belong.