Hell

It's all it is. 

Dysphoria. 

That ugly word. 

That rules my world. 

I just want to be who I am on the inside. 

But I can't just be that. 

Small things help. 

Like people using my name and correct pronouns. 

And wearing my binder. 

But otherwise. 

I just feel it. 

Towering over me. 

Telling me,

I still look female. 

I'll never pass until after transition

And I buy every damn word of it. 

Because it's an illness.

One no one can see. 

And one I can't ignore.   

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

"I still look female.
I'll never pass until after transition
And I buy every damn word of it.
Because it's an illness."

A well written poem. Thank you for sharing...:)....................

[Kitten]

Thank you.

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)....................

[Danielle Anatomyy]

Cronus Ampora, this review is going to be about you more than your poem, and I apologize in advance for that. You are one of the strongest guys I know; just based on what I've seen of you online. The fact that you have the ability to smile everyday inspires me so such. You have no idea how many people look at you like this. You're going to grow up a strong man, and be thankful for your hard past, because it made you such an admirable person.

[Kitten]

Thank you. This means so much.