Holding on.

Written by Ashley.

I'm doing the best I can to. 

Something hit me earlier. 

When Steph died.. 

Some many people were hurt. 

And is was an accident. 

I'm not as popular as she was. 

But I do have a lot people that know me. 

And I think.. 

They might miss me. 

I'm not talking about my friends and family. 

I'm talking about the people I talk to every.. 

Once in awhile. 

They seem to like me.. 

I mean. 

I can barely walk down a hallway at school. 

Without waving at least three people. 

And saying hi to a few.. 

I sound like a selfish fool.. 

But I'm not thinking about myself here. 

I'm thinking about the people... 

Who might be like I was when she died. 

Barely knew her. 

But just those few moments in my life that we talked. 

Touched me. 

Enough for me to cry through her whole funeral.

I don't really know if there is anyone out there.. 

That would be in that postion. 

But.. I don't want someone to suffer that hurt... 

So, I'm ganna try and stay strong. 

Be happy even.. 

It seems alien.

But I'm ganna try it.. 

I hope it plans out. 

I keep thinking... 

What if I become weak and do it again?
WIll I be letting people down? 

Probably.. 

But I just want everyone to know. 

I'm going to try my best.. 

And if I break. 

In a moment of weakness. 

Please just forgive me.   

Reviews

[Kitten]

Thanks guys.

[Finally Fallen]

-agrees with neshie and krystal-

[Bound In Red]

I couldn't ever tell you how much I've wanted to hear those words. We will be here to help you Ashley. We love you!

[Graveyard Queen]

thats all we ask Ash