Messed up thoughts and feelings.

Life comes speeding towards me.
It runs me over, and leaves me...
Leaves me to die.

Everyday, i wake anew
In your desires a new...
A new dream.

When lying on the altar of suspenses
Just helplessness.
My killed faith,
I drop in the trash.

I don't understand...
So where do i stand?
A door in front of me.
Knock knock...

If this is hell,
Then I'll stay.
Just looking for a pure feeling,
Still chasing it...still dreaming.
Who knows?

Maybe hope awaits me in heaven...
But the road leading there
Goes through hell.

Still chasing the same dream,
The same feeling...
Even if everyone throws rocks...
Even if everyone says not to.

I put my killed soul out,
Now I'll burn in flames...
I'll burn to dust in hell.

Can you take it?
Cause till then, there is a lot to come.

Any last words,
Before we'll dip our swords?
They give me the right for my Last words.

F**k you. Thats all.
Then i stand, then fall.
Time has come,
I'm done.

My human side gone,
Time to fire up the machinegun.
Want answers?
Here, have some led.

You killed my previous being.
Now to see if you dare to face the new.
No flesh, no blood, no soul.
Now, i ask any last words?

Your time is up,
Better call for backup.
Hit me...harder.
I can't feel it.
No heart left in my empty chest.

Can you deal with the emptiness?
Guess i never deserved happiness.
And now you took that little hope,
The last rope keeping the beast
From having a feast.

Now its too late.
No, i wont wait.
I'll come for your soul.

Here, i brought your bill,
Time to pay.
You're nothing more than a distant memory.

No deal,
Pay or I'll take it with force.
A few words after all the years.
You think thats enough?
Think again.

Here i am.
Like me or not,
I exist, and wont change.
I warned you. Don't break the chain.

But you did...
Welcome to my world.
The curse is born,
Nothing holds me back.
Better watch your back.

Author's Note

A few thoughts let out in one writeup.

Reviews

[sereenaoutloud]

This is written very well .,,it is very dark too and you take the reader on a roller coaster of emotions! I think though that faith and hope doesn't always have to be a specific religion. Faith is about believing in being better, in things getting better. It is also about courage...knowing you can face your demons, rise above the hate and beat the odds. Hold on to your inner self and not let anyone take that away or let the cane your goodness :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thank you very much for reading, and reviewing.

[RiverRei]

I've been there friend. I'm so sorry that you have to feel this way. It's common for those who are depressed and bullied, etc to want to take it out on others. Hell, I'm one of the most pacifistic (is that the right word?) people ever, I will hurt myself before I even think of hurting anyone else but I still have thought about that sort of stuff. Life is too hard sometimes and not fair at all... :( Another great piece, lovely.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thank you:) and i think thats the right word. But i'm not sure... Anyways, wont hurt anyone. Just writing about it. Though i have considered my options. But i'm not that kind of person to hurt others...thats like a last resort.