At home

whatever...

Home... not really joyfull these days. Spending time with doing homework, listening to rock music, and daydreaming about my love. The walls look down at me with an expressionless, boring face. I feel intimidated by this boredom, it really doesn't make any sense. My parents are usually not around, mum leaves to work early, and comes back late at night. Dad is at work until three in the afternoon, then he goes to the pub... and comes home late... that is when he does come home within 48 hours.I don't really care too much about the world... I care only about my loved one, and about my best friend Cool Girl. Oh, and rock and roll! My days used to pass with agonizing pain in my heart. Now, they are more enjoyable... still when I think back at the behavior of my parents, and how my so called friends treated me... well, its depressing. I wake up with hopes, and dreams, and go to bed with a broken heart. School is only another stop on the highway through Hell, that I call “my life“. The world is running faster every day, running towards it's doom. Its running, and leaves me behind... not that I care, just noticed. I'm not a regular part of society because I tend to say whats on my mind, and when its on my mind, and that straightforward in to the world's face. I'm not a fashion maniac, don't really like people who lie, not crazy about money either. I'm just careless about these things. I don't know a good reason to change my heart about anything. Call me a fool, I don't care, call me worthless, I don't care, call me stupid I don't care, call me crazy I don't care, call me careless, you might be right, but I don't care. You think I'm just depressed, and don't care about the world, you are right, there is nothing more to it, no mysteries. Why? Cause I'm tired of insults, I'm tired of societies lies, I'm tired of running, trying to keep up with the world. I'm tired of everyday's war, I'm not going to be promoted after each battle, no matter what I do. I'm tired of dodging bullets every day. I'll let the next one hit me.

Author's Note

Whenever I get depressed, I'll add another chapter.

Reviews

[Number Six]

Very heavy feelings in this writing. Raw and accessible, just like those moments where I felt that life slowly tightened around my own neck. I partially know how you feel, and I like how you expressed it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not enjoying that you're in this situation. However, I do like how you phrased it in a way where anyone who's been "there" can say: "Ah, yep. That's about right"

I don't have any words of hope for you other than that I like how you write. Best of luck to you, lil' bro.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Hey :) i'm sorry for the long wait...i guess my comment didn't appear and i didn't notice before... Thank you very much :)

[Reed]

Well Danny, I know you're not going to read this...(But it's his work, and that's how I'll write my review .)
I cannot relate to this in any way, because I've never been depressed..Not this much at least. And even though this was written nine months ago, and your depression probably got worse since then... But this helps me understand a little more of your feelings...
Well done.

[Shona_Lauren]

I know that feeling of depression very well, in fact I just wrote a blog about it on my profile. Life can be hard but it just carries on despite how an individual may feel about it. You managed to write this in a way that anyone who has ever experienced this knows exactly what you mean.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thank you :)

[Robot House]

Usually I would say to break up that block of writing with paragraphs or to double-space it to make the text more accessible, but because of the subject matter I think the tight, suffocating clump of words works well.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thanks for the read :)

[Tomoe Tellez]

I could almost relate to everything you wrote, but that's just exactly how one feels when you're depressed. Growing up is finding out the worlds lies one by one.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thanks for the read, and yeah, the human part of the world(Society) is so full of lies, that we could call the whole thing, a big bloody lie.

[Tomoe Tellez]

Actually, sometimes I tell people that the fantasy world I have in my head feels more real than life. Now a days I have no idea what is really happening.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

I tell ya what is happening... The people who are really in charge, behind the puppets they show us through the media, are in war with each other, to get themselves power, to build their empire of dirt, at the cost of our lives, our work, our hard earned money. Thats the reality. They make a few conflicts to keep the eyes on nonsense wars like the one that was in vietnam, or the conflicts in asia, and africa, they made a new conflict in ukrain, and they wanna steer up war in the world. What they have now is enough to make the people look at a show, instead of the real problems, the people starving, without homes, the children, women being tormented, and brutally killed, the drug issues, teens killing and threatening their teacher...and so on and so on. Thats reality, but we are not supposed to see it. Maybe i went too far with this comment, maybe its not so bad, but it will be worse.

[Tomoe Tellez]

You're right, its getting worst. Unless we do something about it. Seems like you and I think the same. I call it "Living inside the box". My goal in life is to change this. I tell my mom that soon I´ll start looking for others who want to change the world. Maybe I won't accomplished anything, yet I believe it´s worth trying. Don't you think?

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Well...i see one too many of those, who don't want this to change, infact, they like the way things are, cuz it brings them temporary income. And believe me, they say life can not be sold, but when you offer the right price, everything, and everyone's for sale. From the president of any country, through the pope, to the janitor in school, anyone, and everyone can be bought, and if not...well, the system has a funny way of making people disappear without a trace. I'm no believes in conspiracy theories, but this s**t is happening now, even as we speak, and when you and i and everyone else wakes up the next day, it will be happening, and its gonna go on and on. The ones we would have to take care of, are too many, and too well protected, corruption has its roots deep in every system, and every human. It is worth trying, but i don't see much chance for succes. Why? cuz most people, entire nations, and races, so almost everyone is easily manipulated through the lies being spread in the media every day. Give them a report about "elvis" walking down a city street, give em a blurry video, and i tell you, that the next day you google it up, you will find atleast a thousand idiots who believe every word. So...try if you like, but its not much use.

[Tomoe Tellez]

For me it's trying, or live the lie with them. Hey, why don't you read my story "I'm just a cookie", something tells me you might like it.

[Dani The Unreviewed]

I'll check it. :)

[brotherspaceman42 (Zach..]

Very raw and easy to relate. Hard to read, not in the way that it's badly written, just painful for someone who has struggled with depression as well. Which I think is a good thing. I like it

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thank you.

[brotherspaceman42 (Zach Adams)]

I hope you're doing alright

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Better than the time I wrote this...

[Not here]

i dont know what to say about this, because it was really great but you described everything so well there isnt anything i could hope to add or to help you with...great piece of work though

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Thank you:)

[Not here]

no problem

[sereenaoutloud]

Wow, i hope you do write more but at the same time i hope you don't because that will mean you won't feel depressed again! Great writing even though the subject matter is heavy, i enjoyed reading it!

[Dani The Unreviewed]

thanks for reading, and reviewing.