Guard your Heart

Afraid to love

and i dont like the nauseous feeling in the bottom of my chest

the pounding of words through my veins feels like cardiac arrest

and i completely detest the feelings that are dying to be expressed

no one can see me now, i wouldnt want anyone to see me now

an indefinite muscle atrophy causing my spinal muscles to bough

and its more than i can allow as i wont give into this break down

this break down of syllables and sounds and beats and nouns

and no i dont want your help, i dont need your dirty, filthy hands

i cant always make you happy or live up to these demands

and im contemplating jumping off the edge to fall a little more

but im afraid of what you swore lying on the cold floor and im

just going to end up being your prisoner of war in this battle

of heart and soul with an underlying tone of rock and roll

tongues thirsting for meaning in this empty water hole

i promise you one day ill break free from this pitiful place

and maybe you'll be the first i embrace as our bodies interlace

with a mess of lace and no more space trying to just erase

any memory that could deface the future or cause me to 

retrace my knowledge base or continue to chase you

back to square one where im stuck in a rut of broken hearted reruns

so dont hurt me any worse than i already am im tired of this

traffic jam of emotions and notions and calculated motions.

if it was up to me this would be my last decree but im not the one

holding the skeleton key. to every slammed door in my face and

this insane rat race. and this is the end. my last few thoughts ill

flaunt .. i hope these words burn into your memory and forever haunt.

Author's Note

Sorry for my lack of punctuation!

Reviews

[Ronn Michael Salinas]

(what you got against rock and roll?)

[TJ]

I love the internal rhyme here. 'Tis a beautiful poem.