Resurrection by Ruination

Some are victorious in their internal struggles with what they know morally contrasts with their beliefs, while others, unfortunately, are not.

Resurrection by Ruination

I have held vigils to drag myself from my demented obsession

But satanic sacrament and hedonism have chained me to its monolith

Vows once held sacred have been molested and mutilated

As I fester in addiction, again invoking the behemoth!

This demonic darkness has shattered my unspoken covenants

Blasphemous craven, feasting upon the carcass of your own judgment

How pathetic you are in your distraught, expressing your resentment!

Your methods I once trusted, but now I am disgusted!

Wake up, you worthless vermin and face the abomination you've become!

Engulfed by insatiable hunger, I'm overcome by exotic thoughts

This demonic darkness has shattered my unspoken covenants

I face resurrection by ruination!

Infested, neglected, conflicted

Deceptive! Repulsive! Convicted!

Desecrated by sacrilege are the scriptures I once worshipped!

Infected with terminal illness, I give in to the epidemic within!

Engulfed by insatiable hunger, I'm overcome by exotic thoughts

This demonic darkness has shattered my unspoken covenants

I face resurrection by ruination!

Author's Note

The first thing I want to say, because I have been confronted about this, is that I am nowhere near a Satanist. I am aware that this piece may make me sound like one in some sense, but this song was written strictly for creative purposes. My faith is 100% in God, and that's that.

Secondly, I basically got sick of not writing, and of the constant over analytical mindset I seem to have developed, and decided to write something regardless of what my inner critic was telling me. Once I was done with this piece, I have to say, I was more satisfied with it than I have been with ANY of my more recent pieces. I think I can now say I am back to full strength, and I have every intention of staying that way from now on. The reason I put a mature rating on this piece is because I feel it's a bit too dark for a teen rating. Anyways, tell me what you think, as usual!:)

Reviews

[Simon Welsh]

If Christopher Lee were still alive, he would do an excellent reading of this.

[Amber Lily]

You don't come off as a Satanist to me, actually I believe you are able to see what a lot of other religious people do not want or refuse to see. There are many different beliefs out there, and some chose to believe in none. I personally, do not believe in a religion because of all of the conflicting information, and I like to set my own morals. Even though you believe in God, you can see why others do not. That takes a very thoughtful person! :)
I love this piece, glad to hear your back in the swing of writing!

[DoormanDan]

Thanks for the review Amber. I often enjoy trying to understand other people's view of things in a diplomatic fashion. At this point, I'm started to view religion as unecessarily complicated, and am starting to follow this statement I made up, "I believe in divinity, not religion". It really makes things a bit easier to look at, because I don't just acknowledge that all religions have a chance of being either right ir wrong, but that I myself have that equal chance of being either right or wrong as well in my decision. Where these views put me on God's list, I will not know until I die. I hope he still sees me as worthy of going to heaven, but if he doesn't, I will accept the punishment he bestows on me, as I will know it is justified.

By the way, is something going on with the site lately? I've noticed that fewer people than usual are online recently, and that I'm hardly getting any views and reviews anymore(though that might just have to do with me hardly ever posting anything new anymore).
I posted this piece around a week ago, and I've only gotten 18 views, and you are only the second review I've gotten! Crap, that probably made me sound ungrateful for the feedback I have gotten, which I did not mean to spund like. I'm just curious, that's all. So has something been going on with the site lately? :)

[Amber Lily]

That is always a great thing to keep in mind because, like you said, we won't know the truth until we die. It's strange because when you take into account all of the theories of how the world came to be, they all have their faults. And it always still leaves you with one question. What happened before that? I feel like there's always a next level of 'before' that people strive to know once we make a discovery.

And yes, this site started slowing doing around the holidays and hasn't picked up since for some reason :/ I haven't been getting as many review either, or read requests. I don't blame you for asking because I've noticed it too, at least now I know it's not just me! I use to hardly be able to keep up with read requests and now it seems too easy :(

[Debbie5009]

Well done; and this didn't come off as written by a satanist..but someone conflicted between their desires and their upbringing ( that's my take anyway ) I feel this way myself very often.. Great piece

[DoormanDan]

Yeah, the reason I said that is because my parents thought I was goin all reverse pentagrams and ouija boards on them when they read this, and I had to soend a few moments convincing them I'm not. The joys that creative thought brings sometimes lol. Anyway, I'm glad you like this piece. Thanks for reviewing. :)