PreludeA Chapter by Danielle WesleyDear Brian, I saw your
eyes today. A stranger had stolen them. He wore them boldly, brazenly flaunting
your unique stare. I was tying Frank’s leash to a rust covered street lamp when
a piece of blackened paint attached itself to my glove. I shook my hand away,
accidentally brushing against the shoulder of this man’s coat. He looked down
at his arm and back at me. There they were: your bright blue eyes etched into
an unfamiliar face glazed with indifference. In that instant, time folded. I
was twenty five again. The noise of horns and brakes squealing were quieted,
replaced by the sound of guitar and drums. My face no longer felt the drizzle
of rain drops but sweat from the humid air of a hot June night. The crowd of
young professionals rushing to their morning destinations transformed into a
boisterous group of concert goers moving restlessly in the confines of a
dilapidated bar. This was the backdrop to the moment when I first locked eyes
with you. I shook my
head and blinked forcefully, bringing myself back to the present. If this man
before me was truly you, he’d immediately say “Lucy, rebooting.” And I’d smile
because even before you really knew me, you understood the expressions of my
face like you painted it. I opened my
mouth to say something to the man in front of me: a greeting, a question, an
apology, a scream, anything - when I realized it wasn’t you. It couldn’t be
you. As quickly as it took for me to snatch my hand away from his shoulder,
the man with your stare hurriedly walked away, eager to escape the rain along
with the hundreds of nameless strangers surrounding me. And now here I sit, on
an uncomfortable stool in a crowded coffee shop scribbling in my sketchpad a
letter: a letter to you. It feels like
forever since I sent you a letter; minutes, hours, weeks, months, whatever
increments of time make up an eternity. Your letters always made it to my
doorstep. Mine stayed buried under my pillow next to your red bandana. I knew
by the time I mailed it to an address, you’d be gone: onto the next city,
conquering the next stage. I gave them to you whenever we saw each other,
gripping my stack of envelopes tightly in my hand as my arms wrapped around
your shoulders, my body slack, held tight in your familiar hug. You’d call me
at night while you were away, thanking me for every word. You told me they were
the only thing that helped you sleep. It’s two A.M.
where you are. I imagine you’re wide awake in a hotel bed somewhere or
slouching in the seat of your van, your head resting against the window, taking
shots of whiskey out of a dented water bottle with the label scraped off. It’s eight A.M. here and I’m sipping bitter
coffee from a porcelain mug stained with my red lipstick, staring out of a
rainy bow window and hoping the sun breaks through the clouds before my long
walk to work. So much has changed since
we first met, but one bittersweet fact remains: our lives have always been, and
will forever be, so very different. Four years have passed since the night we first saw one another; that first rainy night spent lying on our backs, staring at the ceiling of your van. The memory of that night often steals me away from my present, kidnapping me into our fairytale again and again. I remember how you kissed me, black hair curly and falling down into your eyes. I remember how you promised that you’d see me again, and again, and again. I remember how you broke up each ‘again’ with a hurried kiss before you ran back to your band. You held true to your promise. And my life was never the same. © 2013 Danielle WesleyReviews
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