Blinking of realization, my pretense reality becomes intensely seen. The darkness fades as a ray of sunlight warms me through my bedroom window. It seems as if I'm no longer being held hostage; each restriction being released slowly.
Blood rushes through my body as I begin to feel my arms and legs. The numbness disappears as my bare feet touches the cold ground beneath me. My damp hair falls behind my shoulders; the dampness reminds me of the sweat I produced when I was restraint by darkness. Each step I take I feel more alive as I see the light shining through the doorway. My body willingly succumbs to walk away, to walk away from this lifestyle. A lifestyle, submissive to my inner darkness. A lifestyle which makes me suffer; but while pain is involuntarily, suffering is a choice. I feel the light hypnotizing me; happiness pulsing through my veins. Walking further into the light, I feel alienated by these feelings, feelings not to be compromised.