After watching conspiracy theories about Kurt Cobain's death

Oh Courtney Love, loves! 

So deeply that the only accurate compensation is a gunshot wound

In the head. Four days old. 

I don’t care if you’re Jesus and your lawyers are the twelve disciples,

Raising holy hell on your parents and everyone that loves you,

Stripping them bare, is no angsty excuse for you to snort more coke.

You rub them this way and that because they let you.

Friction between your festering thighs of rock star sex that’s neither as good or as evil as it’s cracked up to be

Rubbing them like an eraser until their nearly invisible, 

And you’re the only thing keeping their image alive. 

Getting so much satisfaction out of hearing your own voice

Suck the life out of others that you drive his beautiful mind into the background because of mere forced complacence. 

Sick, unproductive, Bonnie and Clyde love.

Debauching yourself in pseudo secrecy because your drug dealer has two phone lines: one for speed, one for dope. 

Each line occupied by one lover on the opposite sides of their high. 

Your galleria tabloid image reflected him so passionately in the opposite direction that he shoves a gun down his throat.

You can definitely break that which isn’t yours- he wasn’t.  

Finally there is a break in your psychotic mess for four and a half minutes

When you’re on your way down, your nanny with white lips rocking your baby in the dirty corner

You realize that in the mess that your own daughter doesn’t know you anymore. 

Then you go back up, and leaves spread their surface area to fall, and you forget. 

Eyes once so omnipresent, so captivating now just a painting of the moon that Kurt did on the bridge by his childhood home. 

Life like enough to fool anyone into thinking that there is any emotion

Left in your dreary mind. 

Dyed black hair and black lipstick, black as the tar that you pumped

Into your bloodstream (and his). You’ll stop wearing black when they invent a darker color.

Or when Hollywood takes you back. 

LSD and cosmetic surgery and murder. 

Oh Courtney Love, LOVES.  

Author's Note

completely experimental and possibly controversial...

Reviews

[Astro]

Well, to say that it is controversial is a bit much, there have been people saying and feeling these things about the loss of Kurt and the gain of Courtney for years. It definitely does describe the clear impact that the film maker has achieved in his documentary in the audience. Now, is this the effects of simple manipulation or, just the last push to your already existing thoughts on the subject. None of this matters to me as I read your words, I simply live in the moment of your pain and know the tragedy from your heart of hearts that needed to be be described.

[Dana Alsamsam]

i added that little disclaimer as a cushion to anyone who may have had opinions in the opposite direction...haha and thank you so much!

[Astro]

You're welcome. Always something interesting to find in your words.

[Clockwork]

I'm pretty sure I watched the same documentary on Netflix over Christmas break. I was infuriated after I heard what kind of evidence they had against Courtney Love. I came away thinking that at worst she hired someone to kill Kurt. At best, so was so much of an emotional vampire that he wanted to kill himself because he saw no other way out of the whole thing. Either way, she killed him.

If we are talking about the same documentary, I couldn't believe how they treated the reporter who got up and questioned why Love was being presented as a headlining speaker for a dinner about freedom of speech and human rights.

Also, my favorite line is the one about the lawyers. Great one here and I totally agree.

[Dana Alsamsam]

yes! same documentary! i was so pissed at her...and i did consider that the documentary could be rather biased so i got into some extensive research on the topic and do truly believe that she killed him. that whole event was about money so they wouldn't let him ask a true question and break into their hollywood image...whatever. it's easier to prune some grassy green hollywood houses than to prune a screwed up celebrities image.

[Clockwork]

Yeah, I think that is the really sad truth of things. He was so brilliant. Its a tragedy and its just really not fair what happened to him. I

[Frieda P]

Outstanding, this is cutting edge of poetry, the story is much more interesting when you tell it...love 'you'll stop wearing black when they invent a darker color'!

[Dana Alsamsam]

thank you so much! i hope that i didn't skew the story in any incorrect ways (i probably did) but it's simply my perception of it. i am incredibly enamored with that dark hollywood glamour, and i'm so glad you enjoyed reading!

[Frieda P]

Not sure anyone knows the entire accurate story, even Courtney herself, it's Hollywood, you can spin it anyway you want it! My pleasure Dana.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

wow, this is really exceptional...much like a Bonnie and Clyde love yes...sick unproductive.

i think you really capture the aura of courtney love...

it is like kurt's death gave her license to be? well, whatever it is that she is.

really well thought out piece...

[Dana Alsamsam]

thank you! i've been watching too many episodes of conspiracy theory....but i guess it pays off somehow haha :)

[B-poet]

An intriuging and passionate poem. It's unfortunate that his fans lost a musically talented yet troubled soul. Great work. :)

[Tomahawk Joe]

Full of emotion and passionate, like a scream of written words

[Pete Langley]

All I can think of to say is....she speaks very well of you, Dana! ...No, I`m afraid, until I read your poem, I had heard the name, but had no knowledge of this person (I`ve Wikied her now). If this was your aim, you castigate her very well. P.

[Dana Alsamsam]

yes, castigation was slightly the aim as i personally believe it was her that drove Kurt Cobain to suicide. the topics very controversial and she's known to get violent with those who pry into this subject. thanks for your kind review even though you weren't knowledgeable on the subject!

[Archangel Gabriel]

I don't recall the ins and outs of this sad and torrid affair but so well described in crystal clear ascorbic lines Dana. Watch out for the law suit!

[Dana Alsamsam]

hahaha Courtney is really scary...I hope she never sees this. Thanks for your kind words!