I've hurt My Kids

A Poem by dana

I've hurt my kids I dont mean to hurt you Oh the love I feelfor both you two This has nothing to do with my love for you Seeyou just don't understand, I am an addict I try and I try to stop, but then

I've hurt my kids
I don't mean to hurt you
Oh the love I feel for you two
This has nothing to do with my love for you
See you just don't understand I am an addict. I try and try to stop, but then I slip up and there you are all chin up. It makes me hate myself so much I could just through up.
I am an addict
the withdrawals I can't take
when I light up I escape
It does not matter that it is only nicotine
I know how you see me and the hurt in your eyes .
Please believe me when I say I have tried!
I am an addict
I've hurt my kids

© 2012 dana

Author's Note

I have not written a poem in over 20 years. When I was a teen I got one published, and poetry meant a lot to me. So I know this is very rusty. It is an emotional piece for me and I left it raw.