Who am I at the timeA Story by WenDA snapshot of where I wasMom said I was born just after My name is Wendy. I went to St Clements primary school, did ballet for extra curricular, and lived with my Aunt from my Dad’s side during the week, for most of those years. Friday’s were very exciting, packing to go home for the weekend made the week easier. In my later primary years, Graham, who is 8 years older than I, would collect me from my Aunt and we’d cycle home on his bicycle, my a*s would only hurt for the first few days, using just a pillow and handlebars for support on the daily 15km ride. I believe my independence started in those last two years. Walking a daily 10kms (5km from school to catch the bus in I remember Dad being absent for most of my life, in fact, I don’t recall ever witnessing my parents even sharing a bed or our home. He was a jeweler and traveled regularly to JHB. It was just Mom, Graham and I. Ashley went to sea at the age of 16, I was 6. I later learned that Mom and Dad divorced when I was 8. My brothers are 8 and 10 years older than I, both drug addicts, one now working and living with Mom, I still love them, but only because they’re my brothers. Graham is separated from his wife for the second time after marring her twice; Ashley lost his wife to suicide two years ago. Together they’ve given me two nieces and two nephews of which the eldest got a little girl at the age of 18. I left the nest when I was 20, I currently live alone, am studying part time, plugged into my career, and hopeful of becoming a tri athlete by the end of 2010. I’ve traveled somewhat and lived and worked in Germany and Miami Florida for a year and New York for 6 months, yes I can speak German. I am sad that I’ve not flown anywhere in more than 3 years and then amazed that I’ve had 11 different jobs since the age of 16. I dedicated my life to God 10 years ago. This journey has not been all smooth sailing, and since learned it was never intended to be. I’ve learned profound lessons in the mist of the most messed up time of my life. I know peace that surpasses my understanding and know that God will not take me where His Grace will not protect and sustain me. This has left me fearless of life and respectfully fearful of Him. I’ve had 2 boyfriends and been engaged once. I broke it off a year and a half ago, on my birthday. Back then I considered it my birthday present to me, but being single and occasionally lonely a year and a half later, I’m wondering if I can return the gift. He was divorced with three grown children, of which two girls where his own. I fell in love with all of them immediately, and breaking off the relationship meant needing to fall out of love with the kids too. I do believe I never fall out of love, I just learn to adjust. I learned this skill from my Mom. I love her unconditionally, but we do have a professional “Mother/Daughter” relationship… She’s strong, independent and optimistic. She did not have an easy life but it paved the way for an amazing woman. I naturally gravitate to anything sporty and outdoorsy. Dabbling in most team sports like, softball, soccer, netball and then there was a golf season. Now I’m a cyclist for 6 years and a runner for almost two. Not sure when last I bought anything none sport related. Recently I counted 36 medals for running and cycling races completed. Being single with no off spring gives me lots of time to feed my sport additions The endorphins helps control my mood swings and occasional depressions. I love my space and own company and anticipate it would be difficult at my mature age to share a life should my husband find me one day. I generally find it uncomfortable to depend on anyone, and think I’m more self-absorbed than I should be. Although I appear to be confident to most, I have my shy awkward medium self esteem that is well hidden. I don’t like making an entrance when I enter a room and more enjoy one on ones rather than groups. I consider myself friendly, but have few friends. I have a best friend named Chavon who I’ve known for 9 years. We fight hard but love each other dearly. Our friendship has lots of challenges, which should be normal as I’m single and she’s married with 3 children, but we always seem to work it out. I remember a teacher telling my Mom at those Parent / Teacher school meetings: “Wendy is very friendly, but has no friends” … I took it as a compliment. My future looks good. Although I’m a “make it up as you go along” type of person, and do welcome change, I find it’s not as sporadic as it was when I was younger. I’m in the market to purchase property at the moment and giving my studies a good couple of years more. Since there is no partner on the horizon, career, charity, sport and assets are high on my to-do list. © 2012 WenDAuthor's Note
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