April 11, 2016

A Poem by Liam

I've always been effected by words written or spoken aloud,
More than a blow or stones cast at me.
I am betrayed and hurt,
I am angry but most of all, sorry.
I'm sorry that I can't control my feelings,
And I'm sorry that we can't be the same now.
This has gone too far,
These stupid words have cut me too deep this time.
They've stained me with embarrassment and useless apologies,
Even more than the kids on the playground,
The same old insult of being fat that never seemed to get old and hurt just the same every time.
This is worse.
This is you, my best friend, not accepting me, for who I can't help but be, who I am.
Unlike those people who drove by in cars, the kids on the bus, the kids in gym class,
I let you in and let you be dug in deep.
This time, I'm afraid it's added one more layer to my wall,
One for everyone that I've let in and regretted.
Now, I can't say it's entirely your fault because, you see, I once too had the same idea,
Back when I suffocated myself under rules and false knowledge.
You lack understanding, though your pride would never admit,
My life has come with more knowledge and understanding.
I love you, really,
But it can't be the same because, as you once put it,
I can't condone your behavior and I can't support you fully.