I Don't Regret

I laugh because my feeling evaporated into the wind.
I cry because I messed us up.
I can't love you the same way I did.
It's hard to know that there has to be distance.
I won't regret what I said,
I do regret opening my heart.
It's not even your fault
And, I think, that's what makes me so mad.
I wish I had someone to pin the blame on,
Then, maybe, we'd still be friends.
Doesn't that just out how delicate our friendship was?
I can't help but ask,
What was real and what was fake?
Were we just using each other?
Was I trapped in an illusion of you?
I dared to cross that line,
I dared to lift that veil,
Then I was the one left open.
Everyone could see right through me.
I chose to reveal,
I chose to be looked through,
I chose to be rejected.
I knew how you felt,
I knew that look.
I thought I knew you,
I thought I could hold it in,
And I'm sorry that I miss you.