Sunrise

Today I went for a walk along the beach, close enough to the gulf that the waves lapped at my feet with every step. It was like I was walking with an old friend. I apologized. I held its hand and confessed my sins, begging it to forgive me for what I have done. It gave me so much and I just take take take. I feel it pull me into an embrace and hush me. A tear falls from my eye as it sings a song of love and harmony and peace. The ground below me is hollow. I can feel the earths energy radiating through me and I stop. I am in the light now. The sun has risen and I can feel the wind on my back. Everything is as it should be. I start to walk again.

In conclusion, it is not the end of the world if I don't eat. It is not the end of the world if I do eat. It is not the end of the world if I lose a pound or gain a pound. Just like it is not the end of the world when the sun sets. I was put on this earth to help those around me and it is high time I stop trying in every sense to kill myself because I know now that that's not going to happen anytime soon. And if I want my next life to be better, I have to make the most of this one. It will be hard for me to pick up a fork and spoon again, but I will learn. I learned once before and I can relearn now. It's time for me to live.