Downhill

It feels like night time and I am 91.4lbs and I am driving with my foot slammed on the gas curving down a long stretch of hill, laughing like crazy in the process. I'm not looking back or up I'm keeping my eyes focused straight ahead but here's the catch - it's a dead end at the bottom of the hill and I'm not reaching for my brakes. I have no brakes. I cut them before I went on this journey. I self sabotaged once again.