Another day

i never thought id say this but i need to get it off my chest, never thought it'd come to this, but i've become addicted, yes. once before the thought occurred to me inside my dreams, too asleep to realize that i was feeding a hungry beast, you see the demon inside has me chained, f**k it all i'm just insane. i'll drink it down to numb the pain, until the monster just takes over after im no longer sober, fiendin for a sedative to ease the pain im livin in, you see the bottle in my hand, then you know i just can't stop, there's too many things in my past and i am not content with them, pass another sedative the rest remains irrelevant. when i finally reach the point where there is no such thing as turning back, the demon grabs a hold of me, f**k a friend or family, there is no talkin sense to me, here's the coldest shoulder, told myself when i get older that all this s**t was goin to be over, i hold her closer, cause i know what i did last night wasn't right, startin fights, over nothin. i guess i just malfunction, sippin on that liqour got me feelin too rambunctious doin dumb s**t. why do i want to live this way, another day to satisfy, i close my eyes and realize the abusiveness i try to hide but i, will probably die if i decide to carry on. but everybody sayin it's not wrong because these drugs are legal, but the truth is they're just as evil, killing off mother earth's people. so i vow now to never again drown my sorrows down, keep that demon locked inside and never feed that f****r's lies. when i kiss miss mary jane i feel the strain wash away, i smile again, yes it's safe to say that she came to save to my life. i got the monkey off my back, i am a junkie for the things i lack, a heartattack might be the only thing that's left and i ain't havin that.