when emotions run thin

she was so perfect with her mischief
just a perfect little mistress
and i was so heavily consumed
by the poison in her visions
i could only love so much
because I made it very clear
we've hardly been together
its only been a year
i was too afraid to fall in love
so i just choked down my fear
she motioned me to go outside
with tears filling her eyes
i was so caught off by it i just
said baby please don't cry
she muttered into the wind
and i began to wonder why
quit playing these games with me
i need to know whats wrong
she says there is no game Im playing
can i please have your attention
i embraced her with a song
the pregnancy tests show positive
please tell me that your wrong

the first initial feeling
was the happiest of my life
i envisioned sleeping close at night
you're soon to be my wife
she carried on and on
about how i needed to make things right
i can only make them right if i could take away
my past
but that doesn't make a difference
when the memories go so fast
i took a stand to be a man
just take me as I am
or there's the door in front of you
don't expect me to hold your hand
if you walk out on my life
i swear it'll be your biggest regret
you'll be missing out on so much
she replied with an oh well
well i guess this is farewell
you can never take away
how much i wanted to be there
no matter how many lies you tell
your friends deep down you know I care
i could feel it in the air that night
when you left me all alone
no i wasn't perfect but I never left our home
i apologized a thousand times
knowing you didn't care
you lost sight of our love
i could tell it in your stare
your heart is stone you felt the rush
and now it's stuck inside my gut
i feel like no one cares and I'm just stuck
inside a rut
i love you still to this day
your forgiveness is my only wish
i hold my head up high
and pray you come around
but it's such a hopeless dream
so why do i even bother
knowing you will never allow me
to be a father to our daughter

Reviews

[Yellow Butterfly]

You have penned a truly heart felt write laying down all your demons to make things right for this girl and your child..... The last two lines spoke volumes and the whole of this amazing write came from your heart.


I hope she saw sense in the end..... You deserve the right to be a father...

[Dakotah Bledsoe]

thank you so much butterfly means a lot to me

[critic h]

nycly written.

[Dakotah Bledsoe]

Thank you, I appreciate the review.