the friend

Lost in sea of make believe

I sprint through decisions without using my eyes

Holding the pain that comes with scars

Forgotten days as shooting up becomes more normal

When being sober is more painful

I can only find more tears in what i do next

As the day begins with a needle

I find myself back in the sea of make believe

I hear voice of a familiar

Is it her

I cannot tell

For too many voice are screaming to be let out

Clenching my head

Beginning to to feel lighter

Not realizing i've gone into a coma

I’m in a place of with no light

And yet before my l drift off i feel sad

As if i had just lost something dear

September 21st  i lost my cousin eva to a drug overdose

I remember cause mom was so sad thinking lost both of us

When i woke up

I could feel it

The weight of pain ,it was like a cloud on everyone

It left and exited face filled my view

Four years later the sea of make believe sounds good sometimes sounds good to me

But

I found someone,something to live for

For living is what i will do

And yes problems will appear

But i will brace myself on on the tragedy of past years

So yes, i will be okay..