Circle of Guilt

..... when the mind breaks down

Left in a circle

muddling to find a path

the satellite watches me rip out the grass

knuckles bleeding, digging deeper into the abyss

did you ask me a question?

HEY YOU OVER THERE, DID YOU ASK ME A QUESTION?

I must look a little frenzied

perhaps a little delirious

I want to be invisible to my pain

my mind, yes... once I had a mind

now a mass of burnt live wires

smell the smoldering of my intelligence

it's melting away in the scorching heat

once I held the reigns, I sat in my chariot

thought I was God

my jaw held rigid so not to allow words of sentiment to seep through

but life is no dunce .... 

am I still in the circle?

don't want to find a way out!

my fingers tearing uncontrollably at my wretched clothes

to spill the venom from my pores

my tears flooding my throat, my screams can be heard beyond the blue moon

don't know anything anymore

leave me rot in this circle

cover my body with rocks

let the dirt regenerate me into fresh green grass

that just sways gently in the breeze and feels lush to the touch of a gentler soul

Reviews

[Kathy Van Kurin]

'Circle of Guilt'
Hebe,
This is a descriptive and living walk into a soul lost. The thing is these descriptions of yours are far more common among those all around us then at first seen. I think that people are very complex and always processing and changing in seasons of life. It can be real work to grow and change. You have given a voice to what hurt is with your words. Therefore a reminder to be sensitive to the ones in our midst who need help, a friend.
blessings,
Kathy

[Coyote Poetry]

Wonderful and good words shared dear friend.
"let the dirt regenerate me into fresh green grass
that just sways gently in the breeze and feels lush to the touch of a gentler soul"
The above lines. Perfect and needed. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Hebe]

Hi John .....thank you for your wonderful review , always appreciated :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed this one and you are welcome my friend.

[@JoelPascuaBembo]

What a poetic mind you have! Great !!!

[Hebe]

Thank you Joel, appreciate your review:)

[.]

Oooh! Very emotional piece.

I am feeling these words very much indeed at the moment, as well testified to in my latest poem.

You have described the manic feelings of anxiety very well throughout. And your ending plea is full of pain and helpless longing; take the pain away and make me as peaceful as swaying grass in the wind.

Enjoyed it very much, Hebe. Very emotive and with an essence of manic power. Nicely done.

[Hebe]

You described it perfectly ...thank you for your wonderful comments

[Hope]

Loved your poem, Hebe.....
Keep writing:)

[Hebe]

Hi Naat, thank you appreciate it :)

[Hope]

My pleasure...

[Hebe]

So true... thank you so much :)

[Diamond]

Hebe, that deep yearning of the soul is what lays the path for generations through poetry. Loved every bit of your writing.

[Hebe]

Sorry for answering late.... thank you so much for your words :)

[emmajoy]

' my tears flooding my throat, my screams can be heard beyond the blue moon ~ ~ ~ don't know anything anymore .. '

Your pain screams out in virtually every line! Dear Lord, that anyone could suffer so... and yet, yet, pen those feelings in such a raw, gasping moving way'; trying to hold back, almost not.. almost are.. like a metronome of life in hell. Will remember this work.. is so extraordinarily visual even though brilliantly tragic.

[Hebe]

I was really moved by your review... you have the capability to seeing depth. Thank you Emma :)

[Tashida]

What can I say about this one? I know: WOW I LOVED IT!! Your use of words always leaves me speechless. I seriously don't know what else to say. So i'm gonna stop typing because i might start rambling at any moment and you're gonna get bored and i don't want that but seriously your writing is like amazing and i love it and i said that already didn't i? Sorry Hebe... I sometimes ramble. I said that already too didn't I? ok i'll stop typing now :)

[Hebe]

Lol...thanks Tashida, always love your ramblings:)

[Tashida]

Lol i'm glad

[Tanya Ramsail]

wow your imagination power is just superb really loved your writings

[Hebe]

Hi Tanya.. thank you for reading, appreciate your review :)