Rotting in tranquility

I poured my all into this whether that be good or bad

Rotting in tranquility

a hunger for chaos

a hope for madness

in this endless lack of sadness

and gladness

you pull me in 

 i don't want out

i want to embrace your cold dead skin

swallow me so we may become one 

so we can hide from the twilight and dawn

and all things to come

tear me up inside 

i want to slowly bleed and die

just to feel 

just to feel for a moment

cut my own soul and watch it bleed

release it all

the swarm

carrion

all i am is carrion ?

please don't put my soul back in

reanimation of my dwelling heart

annihilate it all collapse the wall watch the world fall

release the veil

don the mail

let the threads dig deep

brand my skin with sin

immolate my mind of tides

of fluxes and cruxes

bind me to the calamity

 fill me with insanity 

feel the whispers let them become your sword cleaving flesh from bone, become my hollow throne 

rotting always rotting 

a call for an end

 always rotting in tranquility,

 you reached your goals you payed your tolls the world wore you down all you wear is a hollow crown not casting a shadow on the lake because for you nothing is at stake it is just another life to take 

so we rot always rotting ,rotting in tranquility

 never fading away an ethereal blur of a life that remains and all of its indelible pains always rotting in tranquility

 drowning beneath the sea of light there is sanctification in belief though those words bring no relief

 there is nothing for me there , there is nothing for me here all i want to do disappear be empty like the world bleed me out please bleed me out let my blood flow through the stream and the void diluted into nothingness as where my soul lies the essence of who i am molded by thoughts and feelings longing always longing for a true smile and a tear a release from all my fears and the contradictions that change with the wind blowing away all that's left. all that remains is this indistinguishable blur, incapable of gaining form just shifting with the winds and storms rotting always rotting in tranquility...

Author's Note

ignore grammar this a vent for me

Reviews

[Daisy]

If this is what "pouring your heart out" means you should do it more often because it's beyond beautiful and I don't have enough words to express this beautiful composition. One of my favourites. Thank You for this fabulous writing and keep up the amazing work :)

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Thank you i dipped my pen in soul and let it flow no matter what it was that came out so glad you enjoyed it daisy your comment was really inspiring yeah i think i will show more of my rants and vents next time anyways thank you for reading i found it hard to comment on this yesterday but now i am able to after you showed me that beautiful poem (:

[OldAccount]

Incredible. The intensity and the pace adds to the depth, and the emotive descriptions are fascinating. Great job!

[Elliott Thomas]

This was intense and feels very personal, thank you for sharing as I loved it!

[TheAimlessWanderer]

I just let it all flood out didn't try to stop it just let myself flow and drip onto the page whether i am hated or not i just needed the release from it so it is wonderful to hear that someone loves the essence of who i am so thank you (:

[Elliott Thomas]

Not a problem, thank you for being so open with your work, I look forward to see what you come up with next :)