A responsibility to the past

tried a more clean aproach

Eyes weighing heavy

silence is deadly 

happiness is painful

leaving me unsteady 

the world seems dead to me 

Eyes of dread fulfill me

i can't let this hate rule me

i let this fate fool me 

Discordant with the fact 

of my own ability to act

A choice led by many voices

a choice made all the same

being twisted by this game

Words filled with regret

a complete lack of self respect

I let the voices guide me

 to where my words cant find me

and  chains of the past bind me

the thoughts burrow inside me

trying to blind me 

From the choices

that i have now

that are mine to make

A responsibility to the past 

I cannot shake...

Author's Note

constructive feedback would be greatly apreciated

Reviews

[Daisy]

Your words so deeply resonates with me. Such an awe-inspiring and thought-provoking piece this is.
How true that our past is so inherently responsible to shape a stronger present. What we are today is somewhere a result of what we were yesterday down the lane. Better and Wiser :)
Thanks for sharing !

[TheAimlessWanderer]

we owe to the past us to be better and stronger from all experiences before good or bad but we also owe it to our past selves to live in the present moment for what all that truly matters is the present perception and destroying the illusion of lack of choice is the start to be more mindful and have more acceptance of ourselves and other THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUCH AN INSPIRING COMMENT !! (: glad you felt it

[Daisy]

You deserve it so much ! :)

[Nemophilist Meraki]

Hey Hey. So, this is definitely one of your more straight-forward, "clean-cut" poems. I will admit I am not the biggest fan of these style poems. That said, this is very nicely laid out and I enjoyed it. It had a very nice rhythm that made it seem almost like a song rather than a poem and a very meaningful idea.

The views of where we should stand in regards to the past are vast, but I quite like yours. I think that the past is a major part of who we are, at that we have to look back at it to better understand who we are and where we might go. But at the same time, getting stuck in it does little good. We can't go back to change the past. We can only use it to change our future. That's my opinion anyway.

Fantastic poem! You're going to get so bored of me saying this, but you are an amazing poet and please do continue to inspire these ideas in us all.

[Pink Pastel]

Wow I can relate to the deep emotions, I love this a lot

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Thanks for reading it means a lot when people feel connected to what i write !

[Pink Pastel]

I would feel the same way and your welcome

[Paul Bell]

A word you hear every day. History tells us. I suppose the past also guides us. But man is forward thinking, and the past just seems to get ever so present.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

hope you liked it thanks for reading and your insight :)

[Ted Kniffen]

Chris, the clean approach worked very well here. It is well written and as I read I picked up the rytmym and found myself singing it. All in all a good write.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Glad to hear i made you sing ! so glad you enjoyed it and thanks for your comments before or i might have not tried this out (:

[PenguinEmpiress]

The emotions and distress within your poems are so present and powerful, and it just makes it even more relatable and stunning to read. This one especially, cause it is really hard to shake off the past, whether that be culturally or personally.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Thank you i am so glad that this one resonated with you it really is very difficult to let go of the illusion of lack of choice in most decisions we make painful or harmful consequence or benefit they are choices but we must not let them define use (: Thanks for reading

[T. Edana Talbott]

The darkness and sorrow resonates with me, as I'm sure you know. Your words are always so full of emotion.
The past can really shape us, break us or make us.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Thanks for taking the time to read this, i too resonate to what you write the world is full of pain and suffering but i truly believe it does not always have to be like that and. the choices we make now in these moments are all that matters in shaping our lives in a positive way even if some of them are unbearably painful we owe it to ourselves not to make the same mistakes if we can (:

[thaleeyaLuna]

You never fail to express melancholy on your poems. As always, I could feel the emotions on this one - pain, anguish, and regret. I realized that through writing, we dig deeper within the confines of ourselves and transform those feelings we have into words. Good job on this one. :)
Thank you for inviting me to read. :)

[TheAimlessWanderer]

Thank you for taking the time to read it you really are such a sincere and thoughtful person glad you liked it (:

[Sapientiam]

Well, the past is only the past. We can't change that so contemplating on the things that made us despair is a waste of time. But, it's not completely bad. We can learn from the past to understand the future. That's something I saw in this poem. Very well crafted and beautiful, I may say. Great job!

[Wølfy]

I have to agree. Great poem, however how many people actually learn from past, you know?

[TheAimlessWanderer]

wow Sapientiam spot on !! excellent insight as usual glad you enjoyed it !! (:

[TheAimlessWanderer]

glad you enjoyed it black wolf it was about learning from the past and not letting the negatives things from then set the filter for our life now and choices we make in this moment glad you read it hope this helps people struggling with their past like i do (;

[Sapientiam]

Don't worry; I struggle all of the time.

[Wølfy]

We all struggle, 'tis life.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

no reason to be hard on yourself life is what we perceive it to be no more no less at least that is my belief we can make life a whole lot better just by believing in ourselves and looking outside of conditioned societal views (: and seeing things for us and no one else looking for what we want for ourselves in life thanks for this (:

[TheAimlessWanderer]

i am not saying the world should be completely self centered i am just saying when times are rough i hope to have the strength to stand on my own and i hope everyone else feels the same. (:

[TheAimlessWanderer]

but there is nothing wrong about relying on outside strength i personally would not have lived this long without support just hoping to build my own foundation for living without it crumbling because of outside forces sigh sorry for this long rant of self justification not the best at speaking but i am working on it :)

[Sapientiam]

No, I understand. Thank you!