Trust. Something I don’t have anymore. How is it, one person can ruin your entire life in just one day? How is it, that one person can break you apart after you’ve been whole all your life? How is it, that person can be someone you believed in for years? How is it, someone can make you so vulnerable, you can’t even trust your friends anymore? So vulnerable that you can’t trust your family anymore? So vulnerable that you can’t even trust the person you fall the hardest for?
As I hold the wilting lilac in my hands, I think back on the past few months and wonder, how the hell did I let this happen? I had a decent life going for me. Sure, it was far from perfect, but I had a life I was happy with, or close enough. How do I let this continue, how do I let him rip me apart, limb by limb? How haven’t I stopped it yet?