Waste Removal

I have once again allowed my pen to vomit teenage angst into this Cafe.

After the high of anticipation,

But before the letdown of shattered dreams--

After the wrist of love is slit,

But before the blood begins to flow:

This is where the sickness begins.

All attempts to mitigate the destruction.

The abasement,

Have been turned to ash--

The limpid clarity of non-emotion

Shows me to myself as clearly as I have ever seen.

My laugh turns inwards and suffocates me--

Smiles becomes rictuses of failure.

This maculate stain of disgust,

Of self awareness.

Spreads across my consciousness

Like a metastatic tumor of defecated resentment.

I am consumed--

Merely a moral blemish

On your polished record.

Allow me to evanesce,

To become the fragments of

Repulsiveness

That will quickly fade.

Let me disappear--

I shall be wiped

From your shoes.

Author's Note

I was having a less-than-perfect night and exaggerated the emotion into these words as any emotionally plagued teenager should.

Reviews

[Skoo.]

If this is "vomit", it's definitely the best vomit I've ever seen.
The language used makes it sound professional and mature, so reading it doesn't feel the same as reading the usual typical teen-angst poem.
Your writing's still amazing (:
Shame I had to wait so long for more of it though ): d:

[Hello, Goodbye]

SincerelyScooby - [If this is "vomit", it's definitely the best vomit I've ever seen.]

btw.. totally lol'ed at that..

[Hello, Goodbye]

love the teen-angst..lol

No seriously, the internal conflicts described are well expressed..

[Poeticadia]

There's some neat self-expresssion here and more than a hint of bitterness. 'Disappointment' taken to it's extreme. I like the way you've kept to the theme of 'waste' thoughout... and worked all the words into the frame of the main topic. I think these two lines are fabulous:

"Merely a moral blemish
On your polished record."

[Judy Ponceby]

I see it was quite a bad night from this. You have penned these emotions very well. To the point of feeling tragic. Thank you for the sharing your words.