coming into focus

if it was my fault

then holy f**k

i am so sorry.

i tried so

so

so goddamn hard.

so if it was my fault.

i am so f*****g sorry.

i turned everything

in your direction.

i tried so hard.

i had stupid ideas about the future

if it was my fault. 

if it was MY FAULT.

but I don't think it was.

i deserve to be loved.

it wasn't my fault. 

honestly,

f**k you.