Help.

I don’t understand myself, I’m so upset. I constantly tell myself to look at what I have and not what I don’t have because so many people have it so much worse than me. But I can’t help but feel like s**t almost every night when I’m about to go to sleep and I just lay there and question my entire existence. Why I say the things I say, how I sometimes stop talking in the middle of a sentence because I don’t feel like my meaningless stories are worth wasting other peoples time. Time they could be using to make a difference in the world. Doing everything I am too scared to do. I wonder how I’m going to ever be able to make another person happy if I can’t do the same for myself. I think about how if I was gone, yeah my family would be sad. Yeah, they wouldn’t forget, but they would keep living, they would still do the same things every day. They would still have good times, good memories. Ugh, typing this is making me feel terrible. I’m so f*****g selfish. I wish I could put others before myself, I wish I didn’t need to type out my feelings on a computer to feel like they’re real.

Reviews

[Sirus da virus]

its not about what you have or what you don't have it whether or not your happy with it. if not then change your perspective get a way from your normal life for an hour at least and forget about it all then go back to it. and to question your existent is to question why your alive and your alive for the same reason other animals are alive coincidence. humans try to find a reason for existence because we think we are superior to everything else when we aren't. and all you can do is enjoy what you have and not care about what you don't.

[slightly terrified]

Thank you! I love getting reviews, letting me know how I'm doing something wrong/right in how I am writing and thinking. Very helpful, thanks for your insight!