For
some reasons, I can feel what he feels. Every time he feel pain, it
hurts my heart; everytime he feels happiness, I feel joy. It should
be good, to feel what your lover feel, but I don't want it.
Not a single bit of feeling what he feels.
Is not that Shaq
isn't a good a cool guy, is because, I can't love him. I can't love
him cause I love him, I can't ruin his life, I can't do anything that
will hurt him, I can't.
Every time I kiss him, every time I
care about him, I knew, I knew I am wrong. I knew I am wrong, I might
be hurting him and...... Just not him.
I can die for Shaq, I
can do anything for him. I believe he can do anything for me too, but
I need to go, without a doubt. Now everything is this world stopped,
I have left, I didn't leave a message, a letter, any last words, just
gone.
My heart was a mess, I can feel it, I can't control my
heartbeats and it was killing me, I knew he meant too much for me,
that's why my heart hurts when I went away, every time I can't see
him, my heart hurts.
I know I can't leave him, but the best
way to love him is to leave......