Love or Pain

You may look mean

you may look cool

you may look untouchable

you may look everything

except a feeling of warm

emotionless

I know

long ago

that's just one of

your masks

to treasure your real feeling

your love

your care

you want no one

to know your love

this will explode your secret

you love someone

and that person

it's me

The real you

I just see it

once

your love is so pure

lovely

just like angel

that's the only time

only day

I see

the real you

You want me to forget

everything that happen

left no piece

in my memory

but how can I?

How can I forget

your smile

your laugh

every part of you

the real you

which is so true

I know that cause you pain

only hurt you

but I want everyone know

your real feeling

the one who is charming

After that day

you turn back

to the cool face

which wear the mask

on your face.

       I dropped down my pen, that's such an adorable pain incident, accidentally fell in love of you, till now, I can't forget you. Your love to me... … I sighed, no one can reject you when you love, I haven't heard your name ' John', he seems disappear in this world, is he killed? I tremble as I think of this, I fear the answer, will be 'yes'.

       I can remember everything, although it's just a short time, in a cafe....

      When I'm 15, still a student, I met you. You don't have any friends, real friends, you hardly have friends, especially girls. You always puts out your cool face to everyone, even teachers.

That's why the real you appear. I am curious. Who will not? I start to spy on you, but I only found some very simple things, you are normal, your life, how you get through problems, you use the same method to answer everything.

I am even more curious, I finally acted brave, talk to you. Everyone uses a face of surprise when they saw me talking to you, even you. First, all we talk about is school and work, at days went by, we talk about more, about each others, we start to become close friends. Your closest friend, and tat day, the cafe day finally came....

       I never continue this story to others, just myself, my heart treasure this like my biggest secret....... I love you, which makes our love to hate, I love you too much. I want to cry, I want to scream, but still this emotions stay at my heart, everything time.

One day you.... told me, you hate me..... I know that's just a mask, once again, you want me to forget you...... Totally forget you......

Why? Is us... Who received unlucky , pain, everything...

           I don't know

        but it's a mistake

      I really hate myself.....

   I know I love you I really do

 I love you more as I hate you more

Author's Note

Is this too.... I don't know, but please write a longer comment(review) for this?
This time, I don't really think this thing is good or what.....
I never write something like this before.....
Or do I? Anyway, this sound new to me......
Thanks for reviewing!

Reviews

[Rhonda]

i can totally relate to the last line "I love you more as I hate you more"
well done

[YYPSNicoletse]

This is an AWSOME story, Ilike it!

[Dalebear]

Nicely done poem I liked it

Dalebear

[Kimberly]

It's a good thing that you are breaking out into a different style which can be frightening. This is good. Keep experimenting.

[Sweets]

Nice poem :D
I loved it (:

[Angelauthor1204]

nicely done.

[~Lizzy♬]

Gurl, you have a writing ability. I loved the line, "I know I love you I really do" because it just spoke to me. I think the story had a very good emotion to it and you did a great job. Maybe just work on grammer but, that's it.

[StacyPerry]

Last line was a good one. Relation between writing and life is very prominent here.