I Am Tired Of Being Patient

Something I wrote in a very lonely time of my life

 

I Am Tired of Being Patient

 

 

 

When I was eleven years old I had a dream.

In that dream I saw a wife and my future children

Even then I was told to be patient

 

As I grew older and body now deep within it own changes

I felt the time had come and began my search

As I experienced my first rejections I was told to be patient

 

As a year or two past I had my first girlfriend

It didn’t take me long to realize she wasn’t the woman for me

When I was honest she wasn’t but I still did not want to break up with her

I had begun to feel impatient

 

When she broke up with me handing me a letter I knew it was over

That’s when my search began again

I was told to be patient

 

I went to prom with female friend who wasn’t my girlfriend

I had studied hard and played football

As I graduated high school and went on to college one would think I had proven myself and I would no longer have to be patient.

 

Two years past and the towers came down I felt the first call to join the service

But needed to get in better shape and be patient

So again I took a deep breath and studied hard trying to be patient.

 

I enlisted and was sent far from home

Told that I would have the job I asked for but first there was Basic

Working hard I did my best even as I was lonely and ridiculed

But still I would be patient

 

When the time came to choose my job for the next four years my job was gone

Someone had lied to me and now I had to pick another and where I wanted to live

So made a list of a few jobs and they chose one of the last ones on both lists

The second part about where I would be stationed at the end I didn’t know about

Still even as I received my orders heading of to tech. school I planned to be patient

 

I did my job and worked hard doing all that was asked of me and managed to graduate

Already I had shown a great deal of patience

Returning home to visit family I told them what happened with my career ahead of me

I was told by my love ones to be patient

 

The rest of my career was spent working at a job I did not love but still I did my duty

When it came time to go Iraq I actually volunteered

And when I came back to my base I felt I was ready and was tired of being patient

 

So searched and searched looking for that perfect woman or at least a nice one

Despite all the bad choices I thought I had finally found her

She was perfect but imperfect and even our dogs liked each other

Even as I felt the call to return home to the other side of the country I wanted her

For her I was willing to be patient

 

I brought her flowers and dressed up in my personal best

Knocked on her door and tried to spend time with her

But then nothing

From her friend I heard that she couldn’t date me because I was leaving

A sadness filled me as I felt she wasn’t even giving me a chance

It seemed I had to be patient a little longer.

 

I don’t pretend to know the pain of others but my patience is wearing thin

Everything I have ever wanted seems just out of reach

As I grow older I can feel the drive growing stronger

To have a wife and children because I have trouble waiting any longer

 

I am tired of waiting and want to make something happen

So I can find that perfect one and have my dreams come true

To love a wife, a daughter, and a son as I have always wanted to

 

I am tired of being patient and just want it all to stop.

I don’t want to be rich or totally famous I just want my dream

Not to be popular but to just be loved and respected for being me

 

I am tired of being patient but if she is out there

I’ll wait a little longer and pray to God that I can hold out

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Dark Daughters]

An intriguing poem, great job.