remembering my pain

You'll never leave.

That's what I thought.

You'll always be here.

that's all I hope.

I've never had the courage

to forget you

or stop the pain that I hold

I sit here now

and remember the pain.

I can't believe all that happend.

After laughing about you

and saying you're so happy

and you'll never die.

That's what I wanted to believe.

I was wrong.

This is me,

remembering the pain.

Why did this happen?

How?

How could you leave me?

I never wanted to say goodbye

that's why I did not go to the funeral

or memorial outside.

It's pain enough to remember your face

or even the look of your poor, dead body.

I'll never forget this day

when my heart ripped.

It's unfixable now.

You're not here

and I can't cuddle nor feel warm

with your beautiful face.

Cars are deadly in the night

and no one had the consent

to save you nor stop.

We couldn't find you.

I cried.

I'm remembering all this pain.

Your fluff went down

while flies consumed that body.

You were so small,

your small ears were perky.

Now, while remembering this pain

I know that you are gone.

I never want to forget this pain.

Author's Note

This was not about a loved person nor a person at all. It may seem strange but it was a cat that I lost. I will tell you that I loved that cat so much and I cried just posting this so if you want to critisize something, do not critisize this poem because it will just make me angry and I don't want people thinking bad about it. Critisize the stance if you'd like just not the content.

Reviews

[DiamondNRough AKA Patty..]

Starting the read, I was made to believe is was possibly a parent, then I was lead to believe a good friend. I like how you put that twist at the end and spoke of the fluffy ears. I like poems wit a twist and it was also intense to read all the way to end. Good write!

[Samee's twin sis- Shand..]

ooh...that's sad!

[bobby]

WE loved your cat , it's ears,it's history ,as WE morn the stillness of its frame.REST but not stoppage!

[John Stussy]

People often overlook the importance of pets in peoples' lives. Wonderfully written, heart-wrenchingly sad poem.

[Silent Kim aka mizmetap..]

I feel your pain, I had to give away my dog when I moved and I cried all the way to and from the shelter. A pets' love is unconditional, they will love you through and through.

It's a good write, it shows much feelings.

Hell I wrote a poem about the murder of a sparrow, and it wasn't a pet.

[Drow]

Sometimes, it's the pets that are mourned more than the people. They become our friends from the moment we first hold them in our arms. It was wonderful. The only thing that seemed out of place was the word hope. You went from past to present to back again. It doesn't take away from the emotions written either. Simply something that is common, but no written about as often as it should be.
Keep Writing!

[Chaos]

Losing a pet is so painful. I'm sorry that you had to suffer this kind of loss. Sadly, as we age, there will be more and more losses that break our heart and leave ghostly kisses upon our lips. Often when a pet dies, they talk about "the rainbow bridge". I like to believe my cat's that have passed are there and are happy and having that image of them frolicing along the bridge and waiting for me, comforts my heart. Rest easy because your pet is.