Callous

The heart of one who thought he could runaway...

 

Unbroken

A fortress untouched

No windows for sun

See my shadow

My image

My silhouette

My darkness

I’m hardened

 

Clogged arteries

Stroke

No blood to the heart

Frozen core

Eyes uncolored

A book closed tight

Nothing presides

No doors, no gates

 

My skin is dry

Emotionless words

Parched Lips

No Thirst

Pupils coated in skin

Lids shut tight

Emptiness inside

Half empty, half full

Choose the former

A permanent shield

Unquenchable

Cold heat

No energy

Thick drugs

Feelings displaced

 

There lies no warmth

None I Swear

A rock held tight

Impenetrable

Impervious

Invincible

Nothing to touch

Nothing to see

Nothing within

A dead heart

A false beat

A fake life

Untrue, not right

A labyrinth of lies

 

You

I’m scared

My worst enemy

 

A message from God

An angel of mercy

A switch

Lighting the dark

Needing doors not

 

Even the densest

The strongest of stones

Weaknesses exist

A rushing of river

Water prevails

Erosion wins over

Carves what it wants

Markings run far

Seeping down deep

It cracks running under

A titanic sunk

Wrecked, splintered

A krackenous bite

I lay here drowning

Darkness wants the soul

I’m losing my paddle

I’m losing my grip

I’m losing control

 

Lost

 

Flailing no more

Putting up no fight

Defeated, lying dead

I’m broken

A Babylon fallen

My fence is gone

A castle

Taken apart

The moat is dry

The pieces are missing

The foundations lost

Shattered glass

Paper torn

Splintered wood

Scorched, coaled

 

I can’t see

I can’t think

I can’t feel

 

 

 

I cracked

 

 

 

You broke me

Stolen my soul

Taken my mind

My base, my walls

You thinned blood

Opened veins

The heart, my rock

Knifed it out

You let it bleed

Black blood, a puddle

Drained it

Brightened shadows

Aura of silver

 

Withdrawal

A fever

Migraines

Fatigue

Stupor aware

I’m tearing

Eyes on fire

Seizing

Convulsing

Can’t take it

It’s Pain

 

 

kill it

pray me

please

 

 

Taking the parts

The blocks

The head

The eyes

Rebuilding

Replacing

Displacing anew

Tenderizing

Assuring

Warming

Revitalizing

A bringer of life

 

Finding the spine

Opening the Cover

Reading the pages

Uncovering the ink

Reversing the missing

 

I’m transparent

I’m clear

I’m open

 

They exist

My memories

My prayers

My dreams

My feelings

My fear

My sadness

My joy

My life

 

I can taste

The air, sweet

 

I can hear

The grass, crisp

 

I can smell

The aromas, perfumed

 

I can see

The world, vivid

 

I can feel

The nerves, electric

 

I can breathe

The oxygen, cool

 

My heart, it beats

Tangible

Not fake

Infallibly true

Red blood

Real flesh

 

Softened

I’m here

I’m alive

 

Imperfect

Scarred but healed

Fixed though scathed

I’m not complete

Not whole

Something’s not there

I need it

It’s missing

 

 

You awakened me

My antidote

My prescription drug

Taught me again

The philosophies

I learned them wrong

The glass is full

Life to the brim

Light can shine in

You extended the glass

A chalice for the lost

Standing adjoined

It laid there in wait

To tell me I lost

My grail

I took a sip

 

I felt.

I feel. My fear.

I’m callous no more.

 

 

 

 

 

Callous

By Michael Carlock