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Mistakes

I rarely make them

But I do. Who doesn't?

It's only human to get something wrong every now and then.

How do we define a 'mistake'?

Let's try using tenses to make it simpler.

Past, something that happened before, either recent or slightly further.

Present, something that is happening now, as we speak, as you read these words in front of you.

Future, something that is bound to happen, willfully or unwillingly. 

I realize that as I wake up everyday

In my waking moment

That falling for you is a mistake

That falling for you while interlocked with someone else is wrong

That falling for you as I hold her hand is wrong

A mistake

And if I'm not too careful

I'm afraid that I might take it too far

Somewhere far and unknown to me

Somewhere I have to start over

Somewhere I risk ending things

Things I have been living with

Things I have been comfortable with

Things I cannot imagine being estranged to

But 

Time is a cruel thing

Your smiles are unbearable

Your eyes. I cannot fathom or 

even put in to words how delightful they are to me. 

If only

I had met you earlier

Maybe I wouldn't be here

In this dilemma

In this hell

Why?