Being Christina

Hello, God, it's me Chrissy--

are You there?

I have decided that

my life is good

-BUT-

I just can't

come to terms

with being

Christina.

I know,

everyone is

a work of art

--a one of a kind--

I am pretty sure

You broke the mould

when You

created me.

But why is it

that I just

keep making the same

dumb mistakes??

Wanting things to be

different,

yet running back

to the same

myths,

"myth-conceptions"

and

unrealized expectations

The same emotionally

un-available lovers

The same Players

The same Heartbreakers

I love the Mystery

I love the mental challenges

but

why can't I be happy with

someone nice,

someone pleasant,

someone BORING

Plain Jane and dependable.

What is it about me

that needs the

mental challenge that

some of these lovers

present?

I'm just askin, God,

cuz you made me.

Answers

that will remain hidden

as I kiss my

Mysterious Lover,

knowing full well

that I will be

nursing back to health

that part of me

that insists on loving

the Unavailable.

My Lover for Today,

and stocking up

beer and bandages for

tomorrow.

 

Reviews

[An Ordinary Woman]

I suppose it ain't over til it's over dear girl
so don't you quit, the best is yet to come
LOVE the poem, btw

[Sami Khalil]

A marvelous self-reflection poem and self-assessment...All good...:>)......................