right now

It's 6:02 pm, it is a beautiful day outside but 

is ugly inside of me right now. No, I'm not having dreadful thoughts or thinking in a bad way.

I just feel out of it. The sound of this fan calmed me down right now.

All day I feel as if I have no energy or excitement about anything.

I really don't give a f**k , if this poem is not structured properly.

I just want to have my feelings and thoughts in harmony.

Mind is thinking nothing good and my heart is feeling all the

leftovers of being good. But the good thing of how I'm feeling 

is that 

I'm never going to quit. I know even though. all I do is think and sit

Cause why should I do something now when I'm not feeling it.

F*****g hypocrite.

Because if it doesn't come from the heart, I'll be ruined from the start.

I need to be precise, concise, and sharp. 

I need to be sure of what I want. Have great judgement. So right now, 

that's why why why I'm feeling reluctant.

Been thinking so much, every step is another step into meditation 

Honestly. I need some food, energy and motivation.

Something to spark my imagination because I'm seeing things for 

what they really are.

If I don't expand my mind. I won't stand very far

 

Reviews

[Jon Roggie]

Know the feeling. For me, I just go out and walk. It doesn't matter if I am in the city or the woods. I always seem to see something. Nice write!

[Dark Rider]

I know how you feel. I sometimes feel the same the same way. Nice job converting your feelings into this poem. :)