I am worthy

And when all things are failing, you have yourself

I deserve love

I deserve love even when I can’t think of something I love about myself
I deserve love even when I doubt myself

I deserve love on the days I feel like I can’t anymore
I deserve love even on the days I can’t give more

I deserve love even when I fail
I deserve love even when I think all things are going to hell

I deserve love even when I have intrusive thoughts telling me things that I am not
I deserve love even on the days I feel like i am a lot

I deserve love even on the days I pick up a chocolate and eat a lot
or when I can’t get up for the gym because i’ve already put my body and mind through a lot

see the thing is, I deserve love

my worth should not be defined by the thought that comes in when i feel like i’m no where near enough
when society says that my body doesn’t look like the standards that are set to make us all lose self-love

when a man tells me that he likes me but it’s just not enough
when I look in the mirror and I can’t see what I want so I think i am not enough

comparing myself because he’s constantly looking for better, I think i must be better

the pressure to fit the standards just so I can be loved
so at the end of the day, I choose everyone else and end up in the same spot, thinking… i am not enough

constantly having to change myself to fit in
molding myself into the person they all wish I’d been

To everyone else I am just an object, look at me and break your necks just to think of disrespect

I’m saying, when you look at me I have no value to you other than my body
My soul, my being, is nothing to you because I am nobody

just a fuckable body
not worthy enough to you because you don’t care about nobody

you only love me the way you can, so oblivious to the fact that you could only give me what you give yourself

and reality is, you don’t care about yourself.

I look in the mirror and think I am just my body
I wanna be somebody

when the world comes crashing down on me after I gave all of myself to you, i end up with nobody

it doesn’t give away the fact that I am still worthy and deserve to be loved
the passion, the drive, the motivation i get from the man up above

I deserve to be loved the way I love
I’m choosing me first because that’s when I’ll attract the love that’s meant to come when all things feel so rough

I deserve love.

Author's Note

It’s more of a talking poem… so when you read it, read it as if you were telling someone else this

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

The poem makes an important point. We cannot let the world decide our worth. We deserve love because beyond all else, we are Love.

[Chris Shaw]

Good on you. Yes you deserve love. Be yourself, you are unique and keep telling yourself that. Anyone trying to put you down, or making you feel you aren't good enough isn't worth you wasting your precious time on. There are people out there who will appreciate you for the person you are. If you can't love yourself, loving someone else isn't going to be easy. Keep writing.

Chris.