Eat me

TW// Self-harm, ED. I'm good now, I promise. It does get easier, I get stronger. This was just the process. It's me vs me.

Look at me 

Remember my voice 

Take a breath, make love a choice 

Think of me 

I hate seeing you cry 

Every look at yourself would make you want to die 

You’re not who you want to be 

Remember me 

The little girl who just wanted to be 

Wanted to love, wanted to eat 

Always just wanted to be care free 

Think of me 

Every cut across your wrist, remember me 

Every finger down your throat, think of me 

Every word you’d shove down your throat belittling me 

The little girl who just wanted to be 

The woman you’re now fighting to be 

LOOK AT ME 

It hurts me that you don’t let yourself be 

Wondering why the world hurt you so bad 

All this makes me so sad 

Think of me 

This isn’t who you want to be 

Look in the mirror and force yourself to see 

This eating disorder will not get the best of me 

The mirror repeats to me 

You’re not enough, it’s yelling at me 

I hear it louder and louder 

Go throw up, you’re getting fatter 

Hate yourself more, it doesn’t matter 

Who loves you anyway, you don’t even matter 

Look at you, you’re not enough 

And you think you’re so tuff 

LOOK AT ME 

Restraining myself for something I can’t even reach to be 

All these expectations of me 

Me to me, this is my constant battle of being 

THINK OF ME 

The little girl who just wanted to be 

Wanted to love, wanted to free 

I want you to be proud of me 

Remember me 

Loving yourself would set you free

Appreciating yourself will let you be 

Your mind will set you free 

Accepting yourself will help you remember me 

THIS ISN’T ME 

This reflection of me

I don’t like what I see 

Why does it have to be this hard to be 

Why does it have to be so hard to love me 

This shouldn’t be 

I deserve more for me 

The blade doesn’t define me 

My eating disorder doesn’t let me be 

Doesn’t let me eat, doesn’t give me peace 

Remember me

The little girl who just wanted to be 

Wanted to love, wanted to be free 

Rest In Peace. 

Reviews

[lessa (kenzie)]

such a sad write really but expressed so well.

[Chris]

This wasn't a hard read - mainly a sad one. You aren't alone, our lives mirror your mind and we live with others' perceptions of what IS and isn't the way to be.

[crystalxestrada]

Yes! I totally agree and I recently wrote something similar to that but I really appreciate you for reading it and saying I am not alone

[AKhaus]

raw, with an elegant cadence of battering thoughts...your style flows and is inspiring

[crystalxestrada]

Thank you! I definitely tried for it to sound like I was arguing with myself, I really appreciate you for reading it :)

[Planet x]

Hard to read but your honestly made it a powerful piece of writing
I am glad you are better now

[crystalxestrada]

Thank you! I definitely was struggling but there is always chances to get better so I'm glad I've gone through something like this to make others feel less alone