Sharing Feelings

I really wish I did it,
you know I would've done it.
It would've been so simple
if I didn't have you now.
I really could've done it,
but I needed to hear you
tell me that
I'm not alone
and you always missed me, dear.
I almost wish you didn't,
though I felt wanted,
because now I know
it'd kill you
to hear what I was doing
to myself.
If you didn't hear it
from my own mouth,
you'd be awestruck
and leave me feeling awful.
Not that it'd matter,
since I couldn't feel it.
I am slowly falling
but you wouldn't know that
since I didn't tell you,
it's too late now.