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I am so stuck in thoughts of you. 
I can practically hear you whispering 
something just for me, 
and I can already feel your stare on me 
as I break into a smile. 
We are dancing around the room, 
my arms around your shoulders 
and your hands on my waist 
and my God the thought of it,
it makes me want to cry.

You are so beautiful and I am so damaged 
but we could be something 
that puts the parts back together. 
But I’m too scared and you’re too distant 
and we are just a couple of kids 
- what can we do? What can I do?
I’m in too deep and I’m too far
but I don’t know how not to fall. 
I miss you, I miss you.

There is something about you 
that keeps me coming back,
but I do not know what it is. 
Maybe I’m crazy to think I saw it, 
maybe it is not there at all, 
maybe you’re just another boy 
thousands of miles away, 
and I am a fool for thinking otherwise. 
I am a fool for thinking you could care like me 
or that we could be anything more 
than a one night feeling.

But weren’t we already more than that?
We were a single glance feeling, 
a first smile feeling, 
an everything feels right now feeling. 
Does that mean it’s now all wrong?
You said you were falling 
and I thought that meant forever 
but I suppose we all must hit the ground.