You Complain

poem about my... er, mother

this sadness that i feel
leaves not hope but misery
just trying to live my life
why cant you let me be?
every day the sun rises, it also sinks
crazy, psycho, stupid, retarded, loser
whats the difference when they're coming out of your mouth
there are days that i cry and days that im high
but there is never a happ day
i try to plesant, but my anger is my shadow
abuse, neglect, terror, sorrow all come my way but never leave my side
seems the only not to
you were there once, in the young days before the abuse
guess im too hard to handle, too complicated
but dont worry, there are others like you, you are not alone
but i am
how do you sleep at night
knowing my nights are filled with nightmares so i scream
i hear you snore
my days and nights are filled with all this pain and misery
yet you complain about my complicated state
when i cry myself to sleep at night
do you have dreams and wishes as old as you are
i used to
now my only wish is to
 get away from you.

Author's Note

I purposely used a small i instead of I. People are supposed to capitalize places of importance, and people's names because they are important, in this poem I feel unimportant, the small i is an expressioo. all my poetry is usually drafts but feel feel to review!

Reviews

[Lightfalls]

"but my anger is my shadow" I can relate to that SO well too. Sadly, my goals became to escape my mom too...it's not that she is a bad person! It's just that she is too controlling, and sadly I dont know what else to do. Taking a trip far away was a really good thing for me, I dont feel QUITE so trapped anymore, though I still long for the day of my escape. Sad writing, but well written, I know exactly how this feels.

[James Johnson]

"i try to plesant, but my anger is my shadow" Probably the main thing that describes me and i know how you feel. I severly dislike my mother as well...great poem.