The religious edge in my mindA Poem by lee von cleefBe alive in life,or just be,choice.
The religious edge in my mind.
Casey, casey stands alone As my Zen Buddha Directly plugged into the Collective consciousness of his world. Kris said, “Go with those two long haired boys, If they looked Ok” Mother and I chuckle As the mortuary man struggled To prepare us for Casey's “Natural look” Casey always was a "natural " Bobbie’s Apache tears Propped open a double rainbow window So we could see Casey threw the beauty beyond An angel with him Patted my cheek with a velvet warm elk skin gloved caress As my heart grieved for its loss. Add two years, August 11th we drove To a double rainbow over The redwood deck in my Arkansas home Faith, or coincidence? I questioned, yet that same evening drove to the store And returned to see a stag framed in the misty lighted glow on the side of the road Now etched proud in my memory How would Bobbie’s Ollero, or White Clan of the Jicarilla Apache weigh this affirmation of life after ? The queued finger pricking response in my brain Reads a book in the rain As Cindy drives past the bible van, seventy in the rain Carlee asleep behind the front seat Concrete center wall No open median here, on this turnpike I feel the force, light Airy centered hydroplaned spin Slide I don’t look up As I read, I relax and Float feeling the collective weight of eyes in the van on me, Us, the concrete barrier, now the wall everything, All my years of wrestling All my years of riding Stopping turning up and down All my years of rope swings, zip lines The whole of my brain’s central balance education Is cocked, loaded, primed, prepared To respond to the impact of car and concrete The smack fades through my Consciousness as an illusion I don’t look up as I read Correcting ,Cindy drives on Through the spin no smack and her, no over-correcting off The side of the road Bar ditch bouncing Tree shredding flipping stop. Picture perfect balancing pirouette, Poetry ,on she drives, now straight Smiling in the rain, on pass the van again Their weighty eyes try to read What they just saw . And I know there are angels. Courtney’s older, but still innocent Too young, nine, on Chases motorcycle Straight for me she comes Like a magnet, I sit in the back of our pickup tailgate down Neck high; chin high, mouth and teeth high On she comes like the highway men My brain lights on a verse Time suspends, revealing an artist clarity consciousness I Can not accept, what has not What has not, the rules were broken Something has intervened Courtney is fine, and I worry Those who dance must pay the fiddler. What goes up must come down. For every action there is an equal or opposite reaction. Who pays what pound of flesh? Must be given, what ripple, butterfly flap For this gift ? Thank you for the grace today, I didn’t have then , On a cot weaved from rubber tires tubes, In a mud tinned roof hut Next to an outhouse Through twenty-four hours of alternating, Simultaneous projectile vomiting and runs, fever, chills, I gave myself to whatever wanted me , Alive or dead, do with me as you wish , Let this interaction amusement of my being end. So if your bible beliefs lead you, it was then ,when I was, Born again. Later after watching and hearing.... The anguish soul tearing tears Of my wife in church Her mournful wails, rubber legged between the pews Dump truck, cross over consequence Open median progress, The family glue, her mom,an arm length away,36 inches, Fifty-eight years, the casket, just there, Later, later, I felt torn Enough to accept Christ,his mysteries, Be clear. I’ve always felt a belief and brotherhood with a Holy Spirit, Weighted in my center cut heart. L V C © 2014 lee von cleefAuthor's Note
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Added on September 9, 2012Last Updated on May 25, 2014 Tags: mother in law, wife, father, daughters, rain Authorlee von cleefARAboutGood morning,Thank you for stopping by. I like to write,I like to layer a story into a poem,I want to crack through to the reader,add emotion to life, theirs and mine. more..Writing
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