Soul

Live a ripe,raw,more relevant life.

I wish it were a knight mare of mescal

Mean menopause

But broken says it all                                                      

Sorrow stains tumble into the void around us

Her heart floats above the feather

Hollow deep wavy blue throaty emotional empty

Perspective embraces, we wish for

Mean menopause, a nightmare of mescal

Time defies logic and yours

Is not the only view

Of hell on the mountain

Drop the telescope and climb, climb the rope

Climb, three points contact, methodical, fluid, purpose

Reach down, form follows function

Function

She said, “thank you in advance”

She said, “Breathe with your soul”

She wrote, “forget me after I’m gone”

In two days she was going to be

A southern biscuit sopping up a plate

Full of Hawaii

Eight minutes ago, eight miles ago

Authentic alive an accolade of life

A funeral is like what should have been a five-month

Planned wedding

Compressed into four days

Boxed and compacted with only our vitals showing

Especially so when “how are you today sweetie?”

Is our twenty-five year old

Blonde worker bee

Pain shared is pain lessened

Courtney Marie Darnell died June 5^th at approximately 4:15pm

Six days shy of twenty-six

The afternoon “microburst” maps out pretty

Deliberate;

Just over a little rise headed south on highway 5 into Hot Springs, Arkansas

A tall pine falls straight across the road stopping a car in front of Courtney’s truck.

A tall pine falls straight behind Courtney’s truck, blocking retreat.

A tall pine falls at an angle taking out the cab and Courtney.

No skid marks.

A stout breath, thunder, and she’s gone,

L V C

                                

Author's Note

Know that somehow Courtney is more present,then ever before.

Reviews

[Horizon K.]

Eight moments later, eight moments earlier... If those moments could just be redrawn, retracted, relived... But life can never be and so we live on and share our pain like this, piercing heartfelt write of yours. And try to breathe. And try to feel them still there. This was chilling Lee. I'm so sorry for Courtney...

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

As the mother of a 26 year old daughter, this reached my heart, my skin, my veins, and my deepest hurt. I am sitting back after several reads, still experiencing a wave of my senses...not able to move...almost frozen. Your writing is like the sweep of clock hands, the movement to the painful, crushing blow of the realization of what has happened...it is overwhelming to think of how you have survived this tragedy. I am moved for you, and all who loved her. The last part felt as if you placed me there, a place I did not want to think about, much like life...it comes. This is deeply moving, written as if to place me there in your skin...terrifying to think about, and yet written with such love and honesty that I cannot help but commend you for the beauty of your expression. To write of such pain and loss is sometimes like living it over, but has the potential to help heal us and reach out beyond ourselves. I believe your author's note...those I have lost are with me, and I often think of them as being "bigger", closer, nearer...and yet, the loss of them leaves a vacancy in my heart. My deepest sympathies....I do not know how to say more. I hope you can feel what I cannot express further.

[lee von cleef]

this cafe has been the best,we may all be lost but here I feel the warmth is real.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

It is. We all have pain and joy. To be able to express it and feel understood is priceless.

[Circe]

this was a release that robs me of breath, to see this life in front of you, described to beautiful detail and the end in tragedy, the pain eternal pain to endure, it is beyond words, the love that transcends time and space, this is what we can hold onto.

[The Random Writings Of ..]

I am not sure how to comment here. There are no words that will ever fill the void, and after catching my breath, and trying very hard not to cry here. This is one very intense piece, and very sad - emotional, raw.
I am glad you feel her presence more, that must be some comfort in your heart. You have shared a very intimate personal moment with us, and I am glad you were able to do that. Thank you. And I am so sorry for your loss. My heart grieves.

[Cherrie Palmer]

Life is just that fast and always unknowing. But the journey must be taken, breathed in and loved, through pains fears and laughter; all of it makes us just a little bit more.
I'm glad I read this piece filled with last moments and echos.

[Violet Dreams...]

Hey, you made people cry better than me!
Just kidding.
Its a intense write, It is sad and i felt it.It took me a moment to review your write.

[lee von cleef]

grief and friends,thank you all for the time you give to me, and each other.

[Ruth]

This has ripped my heart out and made my senses burn overtime!
Magnificently portrayed...
Stole my breath away, truly!
xo

[Mark]

Wow and damn. I have no other words other than I was moved.

[MOON]

Poignant write and tribute her soul rest with you and in your words forever. God grant you strength in the coming days

[Patrick Donovan]

I got a whiff of her soul from your exhale of her. Tears... I have a daughter, 27. F*****g pines... f*****g pines! Keep breathing and I'll keep reading this... Pain shared is pain lessened.