Jubilation

Silence of me

 I sever my finger with my Father’s 60^th birthday present

Put the finger in my typewriter as I am out of paper to write my suicide note

I am severing ties

Brother

Mother

Father

Grandmothers

Friends

Family Friends

Lovers

 One attempt is all I need to burn this house to the ground

Maybe then it will become another graveyard to taunt someone else

I think about being 18.

I should have packed up my assests then

Vanish

I found so many things that make me unhappy in this life

I think anonymity would be splendid

Insincere help

I kid myself with work

I am not well

My head is filled with my own demons

False Idols as a wise man said

I sit here wanting to vanish

Drown under her skipping stone

Chalice thoughts make my brain bleed

I can’t do this anymore

I am a drifter

A loner

A wandering human with one last life on this earth

I can’t wait till I end this