smoke & azure rae

she felt trapped again
unable to open her mouth and just speak
she couldnt find the words to explain the turmoil raging on inside of her
racing to class racing home
never stopping
she would stay up all night waiting for smokes return
his musky smell
slightly sour
tainted with a wiff of alcohol and weed
he didnt wake her up at night well early morning actually
though unknown to him
she was lying silently
still as a corpse
watching through the sounds of his movements
like a movie being played behind closed eyes
she held her breath when he would finally lay to rest next to her.
he didnt know she stayed up all night for him
unable to sleep
unable to read for long
write properly
concentrate
the marrow from my bones has leaked out
im hollow inside now
i rattle when i walk
my eyes are turning dark
i walk with the body of an ancient
and smoke doesnt notice
hes in to his s**t again
and im tired
im chocking on words i want to say
to scream
stop stop stop
your killing yourself love
your killing me
with every swig every smoke every pill every drug
i die a little more