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restless
im afraid to be alone on nights like this
when the cravings consume me
my bones ache for excitement
ive read too much in my short life
nothing satisfies me
          codependent
i know i am
                       and my friends stare in awe
its all an act.
          dont you know? originality hah
im a clone of what i used to be
                               *scream*
depekote lexapro
                        big change from xainex and coke
from ganja and alcohol
            am i insane perhaps
intelligence is a curse
     over think analyze fake your a*s off
im a social butterfly i make friends easily
fall in love fast
                                   then i run
and i hate everyone who cant have an open heart though i lie with a smile and act polite anyways
it makes me sick.
    so ive forgot how to write for a while
i quit thinking in prose
  muted down my mind
gave it a rest                 left ran took off like a bullet
            but the keyboards calling me back
the pens chanting my name                          the pencils moaning in pain.