azurae & smoke

chapter four.

smoke & azurae







smoke was in the bed room
living here for a year
with his step sister
one morning i woke
alarm bang bang bang
wait thats not right
oh s**t someones at the door i hastily get up rearange my self
open up
familar face
i met him in another city
smokes homeboy
im nervous
i wake smoke
its almost seven in the am
they talk blaze
i leave after the kid
smokes excited something somethings coming
i leave go to school
take two buses i feel so happy yet worried
that night i got a ride home
dutch was all happy
yay out or high
i think e ate his brain like a pac man and ghost
we got home
sandi is in her world
and  sky blue is in his room drunk and watching tv
i get home he serves me weed so i wont get mad
i hate how he bribees meee
he goes babie want som kedamine?
how can i deny a high
he bribes me he teases
i take and dont feel it
i hate my past
tolerance so high or this is just bad
i knew the kid looked sketchy
he drove here from tthree or four towns away
at seven in the morning
so my baby goes baby you want sugar
smoke oh smoke i love you son you test my limits try my boundaries a hundred times in a row a cycle our whole life
and i
still
challenge you
i dont remember how many lines
how many sniffles
i still wasnt high
but i felt a lil numb
we felll asleeep.
i dream i dream.
this is better than home
and tiny windows nurse nurse im stil awake
baby you sleep alone today its day three its all blended together
im sitting here smoking the bowkls that were packed
yay made you sick but i still cant feel it
did god make me immune?
no ones up i cant sleep so another drink
im a writer after all i need to feel open
gosh why do we falll
city after city
state after state
i never thought id see nineteen
i miss your brother
the first bed wee owned
the freedom
now were chained
but ill follow you smoke trying to keep us afloat books words by my side.