Often, when faced with challenge I find
myself saying "I wish I was out on the other side", as if I could
speed up time and get through all the gruelling hard-work, unscathed to reap
the benefits. Whether it's school, work, a relationship, or some personal
endeavour, this attitude often arises out of stressful times when we are pushed
to our breaking limits. But is this what we truly want? The general attitude
for goal-setting has always been, to define what you want and when you want it,
then proceed to set milestones which will bring it to fruition (keeping the end
result in mind throughout the process). I
find this method intrinsically flawed because we contribute the entire process'
worth to the final result. We assume that we will come out of the challenge
happier with some material or professional gain.
To
paraphrase what Slovenian philosopher Slavoj Zizek said in a Youtube video
titled 'Why Be Happy When You Can Be Interesting', "what we want is often
not what we want". We say we want to be happy and we say we want to be
rich, however, none of these things come into the question when you are
completely devoted to something. We will suffer and starve for the things we
care for; to suffer and to starve is a reward in itself. Now, I'm not condoning
some masochistic or puritan lifestyle but rather I'm asking you to value the
process itself. It is in the process where you find the most worth.
We have all heard the anecdote of the
lottery winner who lost their entire worth shortly after their strike of luck.
Why is it that this individual was not able to retain their fortune? The answer
is quite simple, they entered the race a meter before the finish line.
Sacrifice, pain and struggle was not equated into this picture. Unlike the
runner who began hundreds of meters back, the trophy has little to no value. So
I ask you, student, are you in this to
suffer? Would you be willing to leave your program only with the knowledge you
have gained? Please, take a moment to reflect upon this.
If a gush of insecurities just struck you,
good, I am doing my job well. Take those insecurities and really evaluate your
position here. We come here for a degree, a career, or a professorship but we
often undermine the people and experiences we gather along the way. That really
tough exam you busted your a*s off for, but failed, is far more valuable than
the exam you flew through because it was a bird course. Value your failures and
strengthen your insecurities because life is short and you must fill it with
experience. Like the lottery winner, if you got that degree/job/doctorate,
right this second with no effort what-so-ever, you would most likely blow it in
a matter of days.
Whether you are in the humanities,
sciences, engineering, etc. we feel a certain pride in saying we go to such and
such program at the University of Waterloo. Often, rightly so, because UW is an
admirable institution to get into, but why not feel proud about that lecture
you managed to sit through without pulling out your phone? Or, how you helped
that first-year undergrad get to class on time. Are not these achievements just
as awe-inspiring? We like to talk about what we will be doing when we get out
of this place and it's often the first question to be asked when you meet
someone, but rather we should be asking, what are you doing to make sure you
deserve it?