Mental illness

A Poem by cooncomemasi

A conversation

A disease that chose me
Just my luck
F***

It's hard to talk about
Impossible to explain
A journey filled with pain

Paranoid and delusional
Looking for a way out
From up north
But I'm alone down south

Who do I turn to?
When I fear for my safety
In crisis
You wouldn't wanna be me

Scared to be alone
Because I fear for what I might do
Can't be outside
Cause there's people out to get me

Trapped in a loop
Maybe I should've never flown the coop

Why me?
Nature or nurture
Uncertain future
Will my dreams ever come true
Did I deserve this?
What did I do?

I am where I am
I can't change what I've done
Can't hide, can't run

So much pain
So much shame
I don't wanna play this game
Out in the open
I'll show you my scars
Raising all the bars