Unbecknowest

A battle I'm fighting now

I'm fighting 
This diesease
You think it's unknown to you
But it's known to me

While I fight 
You choose just to sleep
Alone in my silence
I am fighting lonely

My mind is my sheild
This heart is my strength
This disease
Crouches behind and takes me down
So down
I'll soon be unfound
The medicine is not saving me from myself

Soon I'll be unrecognizable
Gone
Goes my spirit, slowly seeping out of me
I feel it through my enflammed joints
Pushing me deeper
Into the hole the disease has dug for me

It attacks ruthelessly
But sometimes retreats willingly
it comes back 
And cracks the very foundation of my body

How can I fight this enemy, without truly knowing what it is? 
I wonder, I wonder
We could've caught this culprit earlier
There were signs
No one read them

Alone, in my pain, I am
in the restless part of night
Pondering, reading the signs over again
While you sleep in peacefulness
I dwell in the restless burnt down body 
I will try to fight
this repeating night

Unbeknownst to you
Seizable to me